December 30, 2005 ~ 1:09 PM
Fiesta now sa Olongapo... My family went to a friend's house to eat lunch, may handa kasi doon. I was left here all alone. I didn't mind being left though, I love being alone and having the whole house to myself. I still haven't eaten lunch. I am not that hungry. I took out the leftover salmon (Dad cooked it last night but nobody ate it)from the fridge and heated it in the microwave. I miss Hon. Funny how you keep on pushing people away just to find out that you're actually, desperately wanting to keep them. That's how I am sometimes.
A futile attempt to struggle away from a certain person would actually lead you into wanting him more until you can't take it any longer. Stupid, eh?
Well I can proudly say that I'm inlove and I don't know why.
Tomorrow, it's obviously New Year and I've been bugging my kuya to buy lots of "kwitis"(is that how you spell it?) , "lusis" or anything na nakikita kong paputok or pailaw coz I'm not really familiar with the names but he says he doesn't want to coz tinatamad shang magpaputok. Lemme guess. We probably won't prepare anything and hindi rin kami magpapaputok. My family's becoming tired of the usual stuffs. But I don't understand how they can become tired of something which they only do once a year.
Whining aside, it's really boring here but I love it. I love being bored (whew for the first time). I try not to think of the pending stuffs which I'd have to face eventually on the 3rd (still waiting for Sir Jeff's where and what time). It's good to just watch the clock tick and savor the time of bumming around. =)
Rhon just called just to say he's home coz bumili sha ng asukal sa tindahan. Heheheh. Gotta go. A former friend is pestering me right now.
I am a confused girl who is trapped between the past and the present
