Confused...
August 21, 2006 ~ 10:02 PM

Oh my God! Would you believe this? I'm back to blogging again, after so many months!

I missed online journaling, and I'm sure you'd like to hear from me too..

My life did not turn out the way I expect it to be. I failed everybody's expectation. There are some things that I cannot control. So I let fate and God decide for me.

Let's just say I resigned from my job.
Called it quits with the guy I really loved.
Lost one of my bestfriends.
Trying to break up with someone.
Torn between the past and the present.

I didn't mean to hurt my present. I buried the thoughts of my past already and I was sure of it. But when I saw him again... saw him looking at me, holding my present's hand... the hapiness to see me and the sadness and longing, all at the same time... I felt a spark of hope, of vengeance.

And of longing.

I am so sorry. Present, please forgive me. I never thought I'd be in this kind of situation. I tried, oh God knows how hard I tried to forget. But I couldn't. Deep inside I suffer more with each day of trying.

After all this time, I'm still in love with him.=(

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